Before I was part of KCF I lived just to please myself. I was fearful and anxious; it was a constant struggle to keep my marriage together. I used to daydream constantly – it was my only way to escape the fears and anxieties. I suppose in all these things I wasn’t too different to many other women in the same situation.

The biggest problem was a shortage of money. Nothing ever satisfied me and I felt short-changed by life. I only seemed to have satisfaction and purpose when I was pregnant. I knew that was the main reason I wanted children – to make me feel satisfied.

We moved to a house which happened to be next door to a City Mission church. The Pastor befriended us, and told us about Jesus. At the time it didn’t make sense to me at all - I felt I wasn’t ready for all of that!

Having sadly lost our baby who was 3 months old we tried for another soon afterwards, and I was happy to give birth to a healthy child. I felt as though that was one of the most peaceful times in my marriage and in my life generally. We were living in Kirkby at the time and it was meant to be a fresh start – but underneath it all I still felt empty. Something was missing in my life – but what?